“Define yourself radically as one beloved by God. This is the true self. Every other identity is illusion.” Brennan Manning

Sunday, August 10, 2014

Letting Love Dispel the Lies

Have you ever bared your soul only to get blank stares back?  Or shared your heart with a friend without any feedback?  It's vulnerable to open our souls and let another person have a peek.  We stand there naked, exposed, waiting...  It's unbearable really.  Without some reassurance that we aren't the only one, and that our experience and feelings are valid, we want to run away and hide in shame.

Shame has been a constant voice in my head my whole life.  It tells me I'm never good enough.  That if people really knew me, they wouldn't like me.  It makes me want to disappear - afraid of being disconnected from the rest of humanity.  It tells me I am bad and not worth anyone's love, just a waste of time.

In my fight against shame, I remember that God chose me before I was ever born.  One thing that helps me is to write letters to myself from my Maker.  It doesn't have to be "good" because I'm not judged on how well I do.  Instead, it's just truth to minister to my soul and help me to live freely - and loved.

Here's a letter from my Creator Daddy this week:

Dearest Paula,

You are my precious daughter. I love you, little one. You are worth loving. You don't have to prove your worth. I have good plans for you. Don't worry, my child, I will never let you go. Even the smallest acts of love give me great delight. My love lives in you and you are learning to let others love you and give love to others. All of that is Me in you, and it is a beautiful thing to behold.

I'm sorry about all the hurts and loss in your life. This is a broken world full of sorrows, but I come to give you hope and life. I am mending your broken heart, and you can trust that I am working in ways you cannot see in the lives of loved ones you have had to let go. I can make all things new. It's okay to let go of relationships that hurt you. It's not your responsibility to fix others. You can leave that work to Me. You can rest, my love. 

I am with you.  I fight for you.  I believe in you.  I will never let you go. You are mine and I love every part of you. 

With all my love,

Your Maker

By the way, I like the way you are. I made you that way on purpose and for purpose.  Just be you.  
You are loved, my child.


  1. Such important words here, Paula. For all of us.

    1. Kelli, thank you for being here and being the friend that loves at ALL times. Thank you for covering me in Love when I feel naked and ashamed. You always do that for me. Thank you. I love you so much! <3

  2. These is a beautiful letter and words we can all take to heart. I'm so thankful this is true for each of us (even though it's hard to imagine!): "I made you that way on purpose and for purpose." Thanks, Paula.

    1. Aww, thank you Lisa for being here! Makes me smile! Yes, it's so hard to believe! I'm glad it's true no matter what. Blessings to you!

  3. God has been talking with me about nakedness and vulnerability, too. But I truly am learning that when we gift others with our truth -- (the right others, of course, those who have earned the right to hear it) -- we not only free ourselves from shame but drop keys for those around us to be free, too. Because anything left in the dark stays with Satan, but anything brought into the light becomes a place God can move. And He is surely moving in YOU!

    1. Beth, thank you for your encouragement! It's hard letting others see our nakedness, but that's how we get clean and free like you wrote about this week. I love how God speaks to each of us in our own way, but teaches us the same lessons. We share a good Daddy!